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Mar 4, 2023Liked by Rachel Havekost, M.Sc.

This resonated with me. I have never been diagnosed with an eating disorder (self diagnosis sort of?) and yet I can see what the waitlist therapist is mentioning about grief. You’re still healing and mourning the past — no judgement, I do the same. It’s hard in the states with so few options especially in this specific case. I have a therapist, but don’t have insurance anymore and only see her once a month. It sucks so much. Rachel, I hope whatever you do in terms of recovery that you continue to advocate for yourself. Thank you for being transparent and real.

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Thank you so much. Self-advocacy has become just as much of my recovery as any other branch, and I’ve learned how therapeutic simply honoring myself has been. It’s been a long road to get here, but I feel like this experience is holding a mirror I needed to really recognize the changes.

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Mar 4, 2023Liked by Rachel Havekost, M.Sc.

Completely agree. I have gone through multiple therapists and finally found one that I think understands me. Yet it’s the only one of reasons why I would stay in my state / country.

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Ooh feel this. It took me a decade to find a therapist I liked. Now I find myself feeling comfortable taking the drivers seat in therapy, so I’m waiting less for prompting and charging forward with what I need. Trust still matters, and someone who can provide the adequate feedback/support matters too. It’s been interesting though to notice how the role I play in the therapeutic room has evolved (or I guess, how I play less of a character and show up more as me).

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Completely understandable. I am still learning (and growing) and yet I think I found the right one. But who is to say? So many factors may change in a day or month or year from now. I got my second bachelors in social work and yet people said I should be a counselor. I told them no way. It isn’t me. Hah! Yet knowing how it works is interesting. To self advocacy and growing! Hope you treat you and Milo to some good treats this weekend. :)

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Mar 3, 2023Liked by Rachel Havekost, M.Sc.

Ooph - I 100% feel this and resonate 💜🤍💛

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Really glad I’m not alone♥️

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