I put my Christmas tree away today (insert a million frowny faces). During that process, I began to reflect on the year gone and the year to come. I think working in healthcare, most holidays especially New Years seem to fall to the wayside. There is no three week break, no time away, perhaps a lucky day or two off but only if you're lucky. Anywho ignore my healthcare rant...what I'm trying to say is...what will my Christmas look like? Who will have a stocking? Who will be the loved ones in my life? What will change? And most hopefully, what will stay the same?
Right now feeling numb would just be amazing but instead I am feeling like a stewed garbage pile that has been sitting in the 120 degree hot dessert sun just smoldering and it doesn't feel good. Thank you for this Rachel
I used to want that, too. At least then I’d never feel pain again. But I’ve realized without the pain I don’t get the relief. Without joy I don’t feel grief. They go hand in hand, and it’s been a journey in therapy to learn to ride the middle where they don’t jump off into extremes. It’s hard. A long journey. But it’s worth it.
I put my Christmas tree away today (insert a million frowny faces). During that process, I began to reflect on the year gone and the year to come. I think working in healthcare, most holidays especially New Years seem to fall to the wayside. There is no three week break, no time away, perhaps a lucky day or two off but only if you're lucky. Anywho ignore my healthcare rant...what I'm trying to say is...what will my Christmas look like? Who will have a stocking? Who will be the loved ones in my life? What will change? And most hopefully, what will stay the same?
All hard questions and the ones we end up stirring over the most. Sigh. I hear you.
Very beautiful reminder. Hugs hugs hugs.
Back to you sweet angel!
Right now feeling numb would just be amazing but instead I am feeling like a stewed garbage pile that has been sitting in the 120 degree hot dessert sun just smoldering and it doesn't feel good. Thank you for this Rachel
Ugh I’m so sorry Ritz. I’m glad you’re here, despite the big pile of garbage feels.
I would give everything to feel nothing again
I used to want that, too. At least then I’d never feel pain again. But I’ve realized without the pain I don’t get the relief. Without joy I don’t feel grief. They go hand in hand, and it’s been a journey in therapy to learn to ride the middle where they don’t jump off into extremes. It’s hard. A long journey. But it’s worth it.
Thank you for this, Rachel.
You’re so welcome.